01-08-03

Frequently asked question.

Why am I myself? I wonder if I really love myself, or if I only think it. Because, sometimes it's like I feel only hatred for myself. I think I'm going to carve myself each time I miss him so much. There is no soul on this planet who could give me more than Ruben does. My only fear then is to lose any part of it, whatever part I lose, then I'll lose it all. I have no life alone and if your opinion is that you make life yourself, I don't find myself orthy to make my life.
This afternoon we called the letter of that studio and he might want to keep in mind to make a few adaptations, so maybe, I surely hope so, it will be good.
I'm sad and for once I'm not happy with it. Why does he have to leave? Why, if he'd be happier to stay at home? Sadness is eating me alive. It's breaking my haert to see all that I ever wanted, slipping away through my fingers.

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love never fails Hey,
I honestly think it is not a good idea (like it would ever be) to carve or cut or hurt yourself whenever you miss Ruben so much. As crazy as it sounds, you should try to 'enjoy' missing him, it is part of being in love. And you know how he feels about you, you know he loves you and how badly you want to be with him sometimes, just try to do something for him like... find an original way of showing how you really love him or something, make him something. Just surprise him when he gets back from holiday. And maybe tell him about your plan, so he will surprise you too?
Just an idea though,
but love never fails! Not really.

Gepost door: Lena | 01-08-03

- Nog altij da lieke op de achtergrond... just died in your arms... doe me denken aan daarnet toenk in je arme lag, kwou dak daar zo had kunne blijve ligge... kga je misse snoes... kzie je graag, echt heel graag.... Sterre blijve altij schittere, soms achter e wolk, overdag soms aan de andere kant van de wereld, ma weg gaan ze nooit... you're my star...

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star
How I wonder what you are
I have so many wishes to make
But most of all is what I state
So just wonder
That I've been dreaming of
I wish that I can have owe her enough
I wish I may, I wish I might
Have the dream I dream tonight
...
Twinkle Twinkle Little Star
How I wonder what you are
Up above the world so high
Like a diamond in the sky
Star light
Star bright
The first star I see tonight
I wish I may, I wish I might
Have the wish I wish tonight... :'(
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Gepost door: rub | 01-08-03

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