11-07-03

I could be a better person, I know.

A lot on my mind.  Little things, bigger things, stupid things and not so stupid things.
First of all, there is Thomas.  Ruben is going on a holiday with him but he and his parents don't want Ruben to sms me.  That's just fine by me, but Thomas then isn't welcome here!  What are they thinking, that this is some childish relationship?
It's going to be some hard three weeks from next Friday on, with Ruben going on a holiday with his parents and then on a holiday with Thomas.
Then there is that thing with my cat.  I love him and loving him is a part of me.  I could never ever be me without loving Mica.  And thare is no way I could stay alive without him.  I can shout to him and stuff, but that won't mean he'll love me any less.  Ruben implicates that sentence on himself too.  I'm not perfect and I never claimed to.
I think I need some time without him to think about it.  I don't want to be hearing all the time that everyone else is better.
And other stuff, everything and everyone is bothering and irritating me.
I'm going to bed anyway, hoping that sleep will anaestetize my feelings for a few hours, so that tomorrow I can carry the burden on.

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I could be a better person, I know. "I can shout to him and stuff, but that won't mean he'll love me any less. Ruben implicates that sentence on himself too. I'm not perfect and I never claimed to."

kBedoelde da ni slecht hoor, kwou gewoon zegge dak bij je blijf, hoe erg dinge ook worde, kben ni van plan je zomaar te laten. tSlaat ook op wat we zondagavond over gepraat hebben. Voor ieder - komt een + die minstens even groot is...

"I think I need some time without him to think about it. I don't want to be hearing all the time that everyone else is better."

Van mij ga je da nooit ni hore didi... je bent de beste voor mij
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Gepost door: rub | 11-07-03

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